sitting here
alone in my room
i close my eyes
and try to remember
your smile

i try to remember how it felt
  in your arms
how your lips felt pressed
  against mine
i try to remember
the look in your eyes when
   you said you loved me
and meant it

sometimes i wake up
and catch a hint of your essence
   in the room
i look around though i know you're not there

it saddens me to think that
   we are done making memories
this is it
all i have is the past
and sometimes i can barely drag myself out of it
   long enough to live the present

sometimes i sleep the day away
just for the opportunity to dream of you again
in my dreams
we are happy
in my dreams
i am all you ever wanted
you hold me
and kiss me
and tell me how much you love me
just like it used to be

in my dreams
i never sleep alone
but in reality
i awake in my bed cold without
   the warmth of you beside me
it is a constant ache, the loss of your love
there is always something missing
nothing feels right

i feel as if i will never get past this
i just can't bring myself to let you go
i can't help but cling to the what-if's
   and maybe's
i just wait
there is nothing left to do